We are less than a week into 2016 and the following have already happened:
- I ate sugary food late in the evening giving me a stomach ache.
- I stayed up past the time I wanted to go to bed.
- I slept through my alarm and didn’t give myself enough time to exercise.
- I displayed frustration in a professional setting, feeling embarrassed afterwards.
Why did I think that as the clock struck midnight on Jan 1, 2016, that things would just change? I was certainly ready for things to be different, but to expect that I would be someone else, someone better isn’t realistic. To expect that the environment that had been sucking all my energy for the past couple of years would change?…Not realistic either.
Grace is needed in these matters. Change is possible, but with transition, we must give ourselves some grace.
God certainly gives us his grace, we should be able to give it to ourselves. God had forgiven me, I should be able to forgive myself.
A friend posted the results of an idea that I had seen before, but never tried. She wrote down a good thing each day that happened in 2015 and put it in a jar. On New Year’s Eve she took a look back at the year she had. I decided to do this for myself in 2016.
I have had this notepad of paper for quite sometime. It started off as a huge stack and while I have used it, it is still a larger than normal stack. I even remember who gave it to me….a dear college friend who I don’t see because we live in different parts of the country, but someone I think of often.
The words from Scripture at the bottom are appropriate for the task each day of giving thanks to God for the blessings that I am writing down in order to remember in the future.
“Praise the Lord. Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good his love endures forever.” – Psalm 106:1
2016 hasn’t started out as planned, but my hope and prayer is that if I focus on the blessings to be thankful for, and be more intentional about the changes I want to make, God will cover it all in His grace.