I have had a very mild experience with anxiety, in comparison to many in my life who have been dealing with it for a much longer time. I do, however, recognize my own connection to it is real and valid.
I had had several good weeks in a row and was feeling more normal than I had in awhile.
And then like a light switch, the anxiety returned on Wednesday night. I can’t quite determine what may have triggered it, but it was the strangest feeling to be great one moment and be enveloped in anxiousness in the next.
This verse struck me because I didn’t know the word ‘anxiety’ was in the Bible. As I thought about it more, it made sense because of who the author of the Psalms is.
David spent much of his life on the run from King Saul. Many of his psalms were desperate cries to God for protection and deliverance.
“When I said, “My foot is slipping,”
your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.
19 When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought me joy.” – Psalm 94:18-19
I can relate to this feeling. Sometimes it feels as if my feet are slipping as I try to climb up on the ladder of life. Setbacks keep me one rung lower than I want to be. And the feeling of slipping flusters me. The anxiety that I won’t get through and I’m all alone is overwhelming.
Yet, God’s unfailing love and consolation are ever present.
Unfailing. That means when I fail, God won’t. When I am down, he lifts me up. Consolation, specifically speaks to comfort with loss and disappointment. God’s got me.